It's Not Fair

28.02.2019

My love,

Upon reading through my old notes and letters, I realise that I have been writing about this feeling of disconnect and lack of true intimacy since December 2016. There are possibly older pieces that I haven't found yet.

Fast-forward two years later and I am still writing about it. A lot has happened in those years, heartache and heartbreak. Sometimes things are great between us, and I believe in happiness again, but those moments are short-lived. They end abruptly, and I am left wondering what went wrong, what did I do to make you withdraw from me?

You and I are so different, I don't doubt our love, but I do doubt our ability to make each other happy.

I have tried to show you who I am, to explain myself, to give myself to you.

All I wanted was to be loved, and I know you say you love me, but we love each other in different ways that sometimes don't make it past the words into something that can be felt.