Friday, July 12, 2019

To the End

11.01.2019

I spoke a little of my mind, and the result was as I feared.

There is no long-term plan for us.
It's a take each day as it comes kind of arrangement with no thought of the future.

I've let it be this way because I didn't want to rock the boat, but I can't do that any more.

The result was that he doesn't need to talk about anything and that me talking makes him not satisfied (his words, not mine. I'm not paraphrasing).

I don't think there's anything worth staying for.

Our end goals are different and I just wish we had talked about this in the beginning so we'd know we are not compatible and I wouldn't have wasted so much time.

I've given 3 years working towards a dead end.

Leaving each other is scary. Being alone is scary. But in the end I think it is better for us both. It's selfish of me to want to stay when I know it won't work. And it's selfish of him to keep me knowing it won't work.

I have to leave.

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