24/08/2018
I just realised that I have been feeling this disconnect between us for at least a year and eight months.
That's more than half the time we have been together.
I don't know why I haven't spoken up about this before. It has to be said now. I can't waste any more time on something that's effectively been dead for so long.
It's getting worse and worse with every passing month.
Now I've become indifferent to you. I've stopped caring and it's not my fault. You have driven me to this. You've hurt me over and over and over till I can't feel anything anymore. You've gone cold and abandoned me and in doing so you've driven me away.
It'll be so easy to pin this on me. It'll be so easy to blame me and say it is all my fault. I'm expecting it. It will hurt because the injustice of it all is enough to kill me, so I'd have to be prepared.
I just realised that I have been feeling this disconnect between us for at least a year and eight months.
That's more than half the time we have been together.
I don't know why I haven't spoken up about this before. It has to be said now. I can't waste any more time on something that's effectively been dead for so long.
It's getting worse and worse with every passing month.
Now I've become indifferent to you. I've stopped caring and it's not my fault. You have driven me to this. You've hurt me over and over and over till I can't feel anything anymore. You've gone cold and abandoned me and in doing so you've driven me away.
It'll be so easy to pin this on me. It'll be so easy to blame me and say it is all my fault. I'm expecting it. It will hurt because the injustice of it all is enough to kill me, so I'd have to be prepared.
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